The Listening Flame
The hour before the sun kneels is the hour the gods listen.
The heat that evening was not oppressive, but full—rich with gold, with cicada-hum, with the breath of trees exhaling their final warmth. I moved slowly beneath the gate, not from fatigue, but reverence. The sandstone seemed to glow from within, not as reflection, but as memory.
And there she was.
An apsara carved in perfect rhythm, flame-encircled, poised in a gesture too fluid to be still, too still to be movement. Her form did not call attention to itself. It radiated something quieter—remembrance, perhaps. Or prayer that had taken form.
She stood at the heart of the wall, but not as decoration. She was not what the wall held. She was what the wall had become.
I did not speak. I did not think. I simply stood, breathing the moment, waiting for the light to speak.
And when it did, it did not fall on her. It rose from her. As if, for one sacred breath, gold had returned to its origin.
The tripod was already set. My hand moved as if guided, my body still. The shutter opened like a sigh in the dark. And what entered the film was not an image—but flame remembering its shape.
Flame curled in stillness—
a gesture not made for time
but for memory.
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$250
Angkor Wat Temple, Angkor, Cambodia — 2021
Limited Edition Archival Pigment Print
Edition
Strictly limited to 25 prints + 2 Artist’s Proofs
Medium
Hand-toned black-and-white archival pigment print on Hahnemühle Bamboo — a museum-grade fine art paper chosen for its quiet tactility and reverent depth, echoing the spirit of the temples.
Signature & Numbering
Each print is individually signed and numbered by the artist on the border (recto)
Certificate of Authenticity
Accompanies every print
Image Size
9 x 7.2 inches (22.9 x 18.3 cm)
At the hour when fire becomes memory, a figure waits at the gate of Angkor Wat. She does not move, yet all gestures curve around her. Her silence is not still—it breathes.
The sandstone blazed as the sun bowed westward. Each tendril of carved flame flared to life, and the air thickened with reverence. The apsara’s lifted foot, her halo of fire, her curved wrist—all became conduits of a deeper presence. She was not lit. She was luminous.
Lucas Varro stood in quiet alignment with her. The shutter opened like a prayer. Captured on large-format black-and-white film, the image was later shaped in the darkroom and hand-toned in gold to reflect the inner radiance that marked the moment. Classical chiaroscuro gave form to her light.
Printed on museum-grade Hahnemüle Bamboo paper, this 8 × 8 inch archival pigment print is part of a strictly limited edition of 25, with 2 Artist’s Proofs. Each print is signed and hand-toned, a rare vessel of presence and quiet fire.
A gesture held the light—and let it return to us.
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